the best news this year!

June 19, 2013

The best news happened yesterday. I still can't believe that this is happening. We are finally pregnant!!! :)

We've been trying to get pregnant for more than a year, and even went to the OB-GYN to get some pointers and answers. My doctor put me on Clomid for 2 cycles before we found out that there might be other reasons why we were not able to conceive. She then suggested that we see a specialist, the next step to our journey. After much talk and tears, we decided that we'll wait it out for a couple of months. We have to prepare ourselves first because seeing a specialist doesn't come cheap. It's a lot of money. Infertility is something not covered by insurance; exams and procedures are particularly expensive.

We've been using ovulation kits to pinpoint when will I ovulate, that way we can time when we'll try. Yesterday, July 18th was suppose to be the first day of my period. I'm feeling all the symptoms (getting breakouts, fatigue, soreness) and thought that I'll probably have it by end of the day. Although I''m feeling all this things, I still did a pregnancy test. Before, it would all end the same way. Negative. I've learned not to hope, that way I won't be disappointed. But yesterday it's different! I used the test which came with the ovulation kit, a slim strip that will show 2 lines if pregnant. After dipping it in pee and 2 minutes after, the control line was becoming apparent but the test line was still not showing. After 30 seconds, the test line started showing, gradually. I cannot believed my eyes. I thought I was seeing things. I took a shower and silently prayed that it really was it. As I closed the shower door, my phone alarm went off, indicating that 5 minutes already passed. I looked at the stick again and definitely saw 2 lines. It's true! I'm not seeing things! I'm pregnant!!! I cried happy tears, and thank the Lord God. Just to be sure, I tried the other test that I have, this one will show a + sign when pregnant and will not take 2 minutes. I dipped the stick again and just after 30 seconds, the + sign started showing!!!

I finally called Borgy to tell him the great news! He's on a meeting, so before I spilled the beans I asked first if it's okay to talk to him. When he said yes, I told him I'm pregnant! I felt his disbelief even on the phone. He asked me several times if it's true. Of course it is! I then narrated what happened and told him that I took 2 tests just to be sure. I told him that I'll take a photo and send it to him.

I was on cloud 9 the whole day and possibly disbelief too. It hasn't sink in that this is happening. When I got home, he's already there. He welcomed me with the biggest smile and warmest hug. He asked if I still have any of the test. I guess he wants to see for himself. So I peed again (which I've been doing a lot) and we did the test together. We kissed and hugged some more. Definitely one of our happiest moments. I called the OB-GYN's office to schedule my appointment and was actually surprised when I learned that I won't be seen until I'm on my 8th week (technically 6th) to hear the heartbeat. I read that this is actually normal unless I'm feeling some pain and discomfort.

At the moment, I'm trying to read everything that I can read about pregnancy. We're being mum about our secret for now, we'll tell our parents and close friends the great news after my doctor's appointment which will not be until August 13!

time machine

felicity 2.21 - the aretha theory

One of the most romantic scenes in TV history and one of my personal favorites.

boombox, Sarah McLachlan and overtures

Meghan: This is how I know Felicity still likes you. You ready? 

Ben: Yeah. Wha… what is it? 

Meghan: Sarah McLachlan. 

Ben: What? 

Meghan: When Felicity showed up last year, head over heels for you, Sarah McLachlan was all she listened to. If “Fumbling Towards Ecstasy” wasn’t in the CD player, it was only so “Solace” could get a little airplay. I started calling it ‘Ben music’… not to her face but behind her back. But then it went away, and I thought Sarah was gone for good. I almost started celebrating. And then you showed up again. You offered Felicity this cross-country trip of a lifetime, which means I got to memorize every lyric from “Surfacing”… all 10 songs! This year started off McLachlan-heavy, until the big break-up, and then all of Felicity’s hair went away, and so did Sarah. Until you guys broke into the pool. Now maybe it was a coincidence, but guess who started to make a comeback? It was gradual, but constant, and now if you want me to, I can sing any song from “Mirrorball” which really annoys the hell out of me! So if you’re ever curious about whether Felicity has the hots for you, just check her boom box. 

Ben: That’s the dumbest theory I’ve ever heard. 

Sean: Well, I buy it. 

Meghan: Let me put it this way, Greg knows how to work it. If she spends too much time with him, Sarah’s going back on the shelf. 

Ben: I've made a lot of mistakes. But the biggest mistake I ever made was letting you go. What I should have done is realize that being with you made me the luckiest guy on the planet. What I should have done is treat you with respect. I should have done a lot of things I didn't do and I didn't do them because I was afraid. I was scared.

Ben: You and I should be TOGETHER. And the reason I'm saying this now… the reason I'm not waiting… is because I don't want to risk losing you again. I mean, the only difference now… is this time you're the one who's afraid.

Felicity: I'm afraid?

Ben: Yeah, because you don't trust me anymore. Felicity, I will do whatever it takes because the only thing I'm afraid of now is that you're not willing to take the chance too.

Felicity: Ben, you can't do this.

Ben: I can't do what?

Felicity: Just show up and make these little speeches. I mean, that's not how it works, ok? You did the EXACT same thing last year.

Ben: No, that's not what I did last year. It's not the same thing at all.

Felicity: This is exactly the same thing. I was leaving to go with Noel and you just show up and you make these overtures. I mean, this is how you operate.

Ben: It's not how I operate. It's how I feel about you.

Felicity: No, it's this thing you do. It's this pattern, you know? It's not about me, it's about the chase!

Ben: That's not true. It's not.

Felicity: It is true. That's all this is.

Then Greg hits Ben. Felicity goes to Ben but leaves with Greg.

felicity

fe-lic-i-ty noun

a. the quality or state of being happy; especially : great happiness

b. an instance of happiness

c. something that causes happiness

It's funny that re-watching one of my favorite TV shows will actually get the push to write here again. I love this TV show. Back in college when this show was being shown in channel 9 (yes, RPN 9) I record every single episode in VHS. I remember buying blank tapes in Video City to record them every Thursday and religiously watching and recording it.

And for the longest time I have the biggest, hugest crush on Ben Covington aka Scott Speedman. What he and Felicity had is so amazing. And not to mention he's really nice to look at and he's very sweet. OMG.

So after watching the marathon of True Blood (and that credits a whole different post), I've decided to watch Felicity again and fall in love with Ben Covington again and again. Thanks to Amazon and Amazon Prime membership, I get to watch the free streaming of Felicity as much and as often as I want to. I'm currently being consumed by this TV series again. I watch it every free time that I have. Which is probably not that good.

And I can't get over the opening credits of the show. I just realized how much I loved them before and how much I still love it now. The photos are phenomenal. I feel that it captures the very essence of the show.

So I painstakingly posted all the pictures on the opening credits here and if I can only figure out how to put the opening song as well. I'm a happy camper. I'm currently on Season 2 where Ben follows Felicity and Greg on a cabin to let her know how he feels about her. To say that I'm swooning is an understatement. I can't wait for Felicity and Ben to be together but I guess the best part is getting in that stage.

Ben: I wanted to do that for a long time. 

Felicity just gets up and starts to head for the door. Ben stands up. 

Ben: Uh, where are you going? 

Felicity: Uh, I don’t know. It’s a flight reflex.

Um, that was Felicity and Ben's first kiss. And I wanna smack Felicity for leaving. LOL. Oh and I have a feeling that this will not be my last Felicity and Ben post.